I’ve been trying to start writing in my blog on a regular basis again, but I have a hard time with writing my thoughts down and i haven’t been very motivated. Today is my new beginning a restart of sorts. I haven’t written in my blog for many months and on a regular basis for about a year. I kind of miss it a place to write about anything and while at the same time catering to and ignoring a phantom audience.I enjoyed going to my stats and seeing how many views i got a day. Today is a new day i want to bring that back as a brand new me because compared to then i seem to be so much different than i am now but then again who know. today is my day of new beginnings in writing and not much else really and it may seem insignificant but it may reap a bountiful harvest in the future.
i always seem to want to title my blog post “life”, i think i have a few in there somewhere i cant remember its been so long since ive written. it seems like every time i take a break from blogging a.k.a procrastinate, when i come back i feel like a different person life changes in the months not the years. its seems like the hardness of life chips away at us daily, there’s so much that goes on : friends come and go, perspective is change, things that seemed so important just aren’t anymore, and the relationships you wish would last forever fade like the ruins of an ancient world. i consider myself who likes and accepts change but sometimes when you look back you realize change can really suck. sometimes i envy those people you see who have the “boy meets world” life. they lived in the same house there whole life the same best friend since they were babies and a family that is securely fixed together. my last entry was october 29th and to me it seems like a life time the drama i dealt with then seemed like it would take years to go away. my perspective seemed fixed but nothing in life is as it seems. the person with the “boy meets world” life suffers just as much as i do who knows maybe even worse.
“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.” romans 8:28
i have nothing to envy as long as i love God he will work it all out to my benefit but that doesn’t mean it wont hurt. that just means every cloud has a silver lining and when God’s involved thats enough for me. well at least in though in practice still got work to do. like my writing life is never what i thought it would be when you started
i just got a product from thomas nelson publishing it is a dvd book combothing. it is a great practical application of basic principle of playing to your strengths you get all the bang of a hefty leadership book in this little book but what is unique about it is it walks you throught the application of these principle in your own life. i think this is great if you’ve read any books about identifying your strengths and weaknesses and learning how to work with them but after you just didn’t quite know what to do or didnt have the motivation to figure it out on you own. this book before you even read it starts you of on applying it to your daily life. if you find your life drull or draining you should pick up this book and dvd set. the dvd is 23 min long and the book is 109 small pages double spaced not alot of reading at all so you can read it on the john or while watching tv or anything else. its easy to read just a couple pages and put it down unlike heavy books that you must read a chapter at a time not to get lost this is reader friendly for the busy and unmotivated
What would you do if you had 30 days to live what would you do would you go on a missions trip,would you chase the love of your life, would you go all out or would you just lay down and die prematurely. so why do live our day to day lives like we are dead already we shut off our emotion or we lead lives of destruction or we just simple care so much about what everybody else thinks of us that we sink deep into depression. id rather spend my life living rather then being dead my whole life and just living my final days. what is on the other side of death can be great or terrible and our lives are the training ground. there is a story i know of two farmers both were in a drought that was making them bankrupt they both prayed every day that it would rain and that their crops would grow one farmer worked his Field every day preparing his field as if the rain was there already the other sat around waiting for rain so that he didn’t waste his time the seed or anything else. when the rain finally came the first farmers crops grew the other ones didn’t because he wasn’t prepared. our lives are full of terrible times but they all are to see if we have the faith to press on that God has our back he’ll send the rain but if your Field isn’t prepared no crops are gonna grow.from this Day forward i want to experience life the way it is meant to be experienced. i want to take in every emotion whether its painful or not . i want to take advantage of every opportunity not just sit around waiting for hell to freeze over.i want put away the destructive things in my life now and not say ill grow out of it. God has so much planned for your life that you can’t imagine the question is are you gonna step out of the way and let it happen or are you gonna coward away i cant the pain is too deep or change is to hard or simply i don’t know how. those are not valid excuses life’s too short to wait around to be scared to lie down and play dead because it ll happen whether like it or not and in the end everything depends on whether you prepared your fields.
it seems to me as though the generation I’m living in is has an inferiority complex everywhere i go all i hear is “i cant” or “I’m not good enough” or “I dont want to fail.” we live in a state of fear of failure and insecruity in our true worth. instead of following our dreams and passions we follow our plan and the best paying job. I’m held back by fear everyday because my self worth is low i am my hardest critic I tell myself im not good in every situation but yet i don’t feel good enough and although i try to hide it or deny it its still there i see my friends everyday struggling with the same thing and i try to help but how could i if i dont always believe it in myself its so easy to see the worth in others but hard to see are own but God sent his son to die and the is the ultimate sign of worth for all humanity. For you ladies out there you look good just the way you are.
proverbs 31
10 [c] A wife of noble character who can find?
She is worth far more than rubies.
11 Her husband has full confidence in her
and lacks nothing of value.
12 She brings him good, not harm,
all the days of her life.
13 She selects wool and flax
and works with eager hands.
14 She is like the merchant ships,
bringing her food from afar.
15 She gets up while it is still dark;
she provides food for her family
and portions for her servant girls.
16 She considers a field and buys it;
out of her earnings she plants a vineyard.
17 She sets about her work vigorously;
her arms are strong for her tasks.
18 She sees that her trading is profitable,
and her lamp does not go out at night.
19 In her hand she holds the distaff
and grasps the spindle with her fingers.
20 She opens her arms to the poor
and extends her hands to the needy.
21 When it snows, she has no fear for her household;
for all of them are clothed in scarlet.
22 She makes coverings for her bed;
she is clothed in fine linen and purple.
23 Her husband is respected at the city gate,
where he takes his seat among the elders of the land.
24 She makes linen garments and sells them,
and supplies the merchants with sashes.
25 She is clothed with strength and dignity;
she can laugh at the days to come.
26 She speaks with wisdom,
and faithful instruction is on her tongue.
27 She watches over the affairs of her household
and does not eat the bread of idleness.
28 Her children arise and call her blessed;
her husband also, and he praises her:
29 “Many women do noble things,
but you surpass them all.”
30 Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;
but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised.
31 Give her the reward she has earned,
and let her works bring her praise at the city gate.
don’t worry about looking like anybody else barbies overrated
i just got done watching facing giants when i first started it i was not impressed by the acting or story line but as the movie went on the moral of the story line surpassed all expectations. when i usually read or watch christian made media and products it seems as though over and over again i find that the morals are cliche and have no depth. this movie however had some of the cliche lines it also had depth and practicality i was moved by the story of the losing team that layed it on the line for God and was rewarded.
We serve and an awsome super insanly intellegtnt God. im so pumped right now because I was trying think up the next series we were going to do in the youth group and i was thinking maybe depression and addiction stuff like that. so i go to talk to a friend of mine on facebook i told her what i was doing and she just shoots of justice, when i heard that i was like OMG thats it but kinda held back and was just thinking about it for a few minuets then in walks terrence saying your gonna read this book called deep justice in a shallow world and i got pumped and im still pumped and we’re doing that series
I went into lucky’s today with the express purpose of getting four cucumbers as I walked in there was a lady with a table to support breast cancer. I was going to walk right by until she said “if you donate a dollar I’ll make you a root beer float.” so what is it I did I gave a dollar of course but I felt bad as I walked out the store with my float. I took a root beer float for me to give anything. It made me think about the consumeristic nature of this country. We won’t do most things unless it profits us. Is that wrong? When I got that float maybe, I could say I was rushing or that I would have given another time but those are just excuses. In reality though the real issue is do you ever purely give? if you don’t get something in return will you do it? It’s like JFK once said ” do not ask what your country can do for you ask what you can do for your country.” except you can switch country to world, community, or church. I’m not saying we should always just give but be aware that if you make some kind of profit in everything you do you’re a burden on your community. Give some time and energy to your community without expecting a return or give to a charity without being prompted by a rootbeer float. The average American gives 2%of their income to charity that means if you make 30 grand a year you give six hundred dollars a year. Is that you and why is that you? Is it intentional?
In 2 corinthians 12:9 it says
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.
This has become a life verse of mine, because it seems that things that i am afraid of or that i say I’m no good at tend to be the things that are actually my greatest strengths. for example, my entire life i’ve had a fear of public speaking and never wanted to have anything to do with it and after little encouragment i had decided to do a speech and i have never turned back. I now truely love public speaking. another example, I had felt the pull of my heart toward pastoring and i pushed it away for awhile because i felt as though i was to young a christian but, God had it in mind for me. i finally made the decision to follow that and soon after some hutful things happened to me that caused us to leave the church my family was at, the circumstances involved scared me away from my calling. it took us 6 months to find a new church and during that time because of my fear I ignored God. We finally found a new church after that the pull came right back and like before i put it off for a little while until I couldn’t any longer. So here I am planning my life toward becoming a youth pastor. I have so many examples of this in my life from big to small and I really wanted to share this with you. The point of all this is just to say that God works the way he wants not the way you want and if your life is his he’ll lead you any way he has planned he’ll turn your perspective upside down and back again, so sit back and have fun riding the rollercoaster of life, it has more twists and turns than any rollercoaster on earth.
About 3 weeks ago I came across a website called Dear God and when I went to go check it out I was in amazment of what I found. Dear God is a site that allows people to send in letters to God and posts them, people are able to vent to God about there lives, open up about there lives, praise him for good, curse him for bad, anything they want. Some of the most shocking to me were the letters from the atheists because they wrote him as if he was right there. Reading these letters I wonder if these people that the letter they wrote was a prayer. The depth of their letters really has inspired my to figure out how I can get that depth in my prayer life. These people are crying out to God with all they got whether they believe or not and that blows my mind. Check it out for yourself www.dear-god.net
